This was 8 years ago, less than two months after my weigh loss surgery.
I still remember that fat girl.
I’ve kept off over 110 pounds.
A year after my surgery, I replaced one vice with another.
Since I physically couldn’t overeat, I turned to alcohol. I got a buzz super quick!
(Numbing feelings, not wanting to deal with the real world.)
It left my system pretty quickly too. So I drank more, and more, and more.
But, I didn’t start drinking till work was done, or after the dog park at 5pm.
I “kinda” joked with my then husband, as long as I don’t go to the dog park in the morning and start drinking around noon, I’m fine.
I was so wrong.
About four years ago, March, I was in Elko, my grandpa had passed, I was living in Boston at the time, and was on the phone with my then husband, stating that I needed a major lifestyle change.
That August I left my then husband and went back to Vegas.
One of the hardest things I’ve had to do. Torn between loving him and loving myself more.
Having no friends, living 3000 miles from home.
Well, I did it. I left.
It’s been quite an adventure since.
Lots of tears, lots of laughs, a crap ton of personal growth, being outside of my comfort zone, and digging deep inside to find the “Fat Amy Confidence” that I needed.
Thank goodness for amazing friends to help me thru this thing we call life. 🙂
Since then, I am stronger that I ever thought that I could be.
I’ve made more money in 2015 than I ever had before, 2016, yet even more.
I made travel a reality, Peru, Bahamas, Cancun, ITALY!
The happiness I was searching for in things, people, external objects, was inside me all along.
I am truly happy and grateful for my life.
Even all the challenges that I’ve had, for they have made me who I am today.
I am a work in progress, as we all are.
I’ve been sober for over a year and a half.
So take it from me, a former super fat girl, recovering alcoholic, that life does get better.
You have to do the inner work.
Then you have to do the outer work.
It’s, a lot of work, but it’s so worth it!